Letters from the Equator

I’m flying off to Bangkok tomorrow.

The interview with Tokuii at 6 this evening wasn’t an interview, it was just a Java test. I was kind of dissapointed about that. Not too comfortable knowing I’ll be away when they decide to call me up for a 2nd interview, but at least they’ve been informed.

One of my close colleagues had left the company recently and and things have slowed down a little. Soon, another one will leave, and I’m kind of uncertain about my job scope and also how different it’ll be without them… and that bothers me. It’s like I don’t really have anything good to look forward to after this project is over…. i mean, work-wise.

I don’t know how leadership will respond to me, as I continue to push myself further into middle level management. I know for a fact that most engineers never get there unless there’s a shortage of staff or that they’ve been there long enough. And neither of that has happened.

Part of me feels that I’m capable enough to handle the role of managing a team, but I think people feel I’m too young or that they have different plans for me.

I know the Spirit is telling me he has stuff planned out and I need to trust him on this, so I’m trying to learn to leave it in his hands.