Letters from the Equator

No wonder the world then and the world now finds it hard to accept Jesus as the Messiah. Then and now, this is the world’s verdict on a crucified messiah. “It is foolish to the Jews, who ask for signs from heaven. And it is foolish to the Greeks, who seek human wisdom. So when we preach that Christ was crucified, the Jews are offended and the Gentiles say it’s all nonsense.” (1 Corinthians 1:22-23 NLT), taken from Grace @ Work, written by Tan Soo Inn

This year marks my 10th year as a Christian. Over the years, I’ve received all sorts of responses, some encouraging, others disturbing. But I’ve never once asked myself whether my decision to accept Jesus was “worth it”, because in all honesty, I’ve taken it for granted – there’s no question about it.

It’s not at all like looking for a nice pair of jeans, which you try on and wear for a period of time, and replace with a better one the next year. It’s kind of like how your new baby sister is coming, and now that she’s here, there’s no going back.

The only difference is that folks can relate to a new-baby-sister scenario. Most don’t relate to the Jesus-new-in your-life story.

So anyway, God and I have been talking, and I’m really going through a rough patch in my life at the moment, and I’m just praying for some real breathing space. I think it’s more mental than anything else, because sometimes when I do get a break, it doesn’t feel like a break.

But the good thing is that, well, that it’s a good kind of busy-ness… and God is teaching me a lot of things through this process. It feels like growing up, and like they say, growing up is hard to do.

So, to me, this Easter is about God “coming back” to life in me through the things that I’m doing, through intentional relationships, through being real with myself.

I always get scared about posting about my walk with God, because I know I’m accountable for it. But I guess that’s what real testimonies are all about.