Suspending judgement
April 14th, 2007 by boon
I’ve been attending an 8-week long seminar on prayer healing, and they call it that because it’s about healing, and the main method is prayer. So, there.
The session basically focuses on recurring negative patterns (e.g. constant job loss, sickness at a certain time of the year, etc.), and attempts to recount past experiences in which the counselee had made an inner vow or a bitter root judgement.
The basis of this is Matthew 7:1, where we will be judged in the same measure in which we judge. We commonly focus on the trigger as the cause rather than our response, whereas the bible makes it clear that it’s our response that gets us in or out of trouble.
So, for example, if my dad hit me in the face for no apparent reason, and I judged him bitterly for that and said, “I will never hit anyone in the face”, then I’ve just placed a judgment on myself.
No matter that the action was probably wrong, but it’s our responses that get us caught in a vicious cycle of pain and problems.
So, anyway, the prayer healing takes us through forgiveness and letting go of the judgments we made in order that we may be healed.
That has really helped me a lot, in the way I used to see my parents and some of my close friends and relatives. I used to be really critical at times, and it came from judgments I used to make on my parents and so on. After letting go of those judgments, I began to experience looking and relating with people differently, and with myself as well.
No doubt it was difficult at first, because some of the judgments I made were out of fear or wanting to build a fortress to protect myself. But as I began to allow God to show me that I didn’t have to live that way, it was a lot better.
I’m still far from being completely healed, but at least there’s hope, and I’m really glad that it’s real and that it’s something I can share with others, too.